Nah~ not like it's a happy day :(
but yea..it is..erm..sort of =P
It began with an 8am morning class, and believe me, all the IMU student just hate 8am class! haha
I woke up early in the morning, cut the super big + expensive RED apple that i've bought 2 days ago in carrefore =D and went out to school with my housemate, Joan.
We chatted for a short while on our way to school. After saying bye, i rushed to the lift and straight away went up to the 4th floor, a theatre where we call the Audi.
The 1st class was Polymorphism, one of the lecture in the module Physical Pharmacy, and next to that was our haematology PBL.
I was quite nervous cause I was the leader today.
And yea, my job was pretty simple, apparently.. It was just to begin with a very short opening speech, read out the case study that was given to us on the spot, and then make sure everyone is invovled and do talk, make the person to speak out if she has been keeping quiet for quit a long time, be the time keeper, wrap up at the end and distribute the job. It sounds simple right? but it doesnt really.. because I am the one who shall break the awkward silence once eveyone has stopped throwing out their point of view and etc etc.
But I thank God. I was quite worry about the guinea pig ileum practical yesterday and the PBL today. I prayed to God and asked for helping. And know what? yesterday our group was the 1st to finish the experiment. It was a 4 hour practical by the way, and we only used about 1 hour plus to finish, besides our graph plotted was indeed a nice one=D And today right? When the PBL was officially over, our instructor said that I've done well as a leader! yay!!! Give glory to God. It is He who helped me all while especially when doing the wrap up. I wasn't really know what to say, but just amazingly while I'm speaking the idea was just flowing out smoothly,some how :)
Yeap, and there is another joyful thing that are to be shared here.
Guess what, yesterday I received a little gift surprisingly!haha!
It was from the library aunty by the way.. As usual, I smiled at her while passing by.
This time, she didnt just smile back, but ask me 'How are you?'
'I'm fine' i replied. ' How about you?'
'ya...... I've something to give you, wait for a while a'
and suddenly she took out some cookies from her bag and passed it to me.
'I only give those who I like, and now I give you!'
waw you know, that feeling was just hard to be described. It was so delightful =D
I've never really talk to her, all those days was just a simple smile :)
Back to the topic, It's Valentine!
Some how this Valentine brings me extra loneliness.
It is just a normal Valentine as alll the years before, normal Valentine without a partner.
To me Valentine was just... Valentine lar!
But some how I really feel lonely in this Valentine..
hmm..maybe because I'm already 21??
nah~ hope that the next Valentine will be a meaningful one :)
At last, I wish you all of my readers a Happy Lovely Valentine! =)
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
My heart sank
I was buying some mini t-shirts and dress for my going-to-be-born baby cousin in KLCC.
The workers' eye were strange when they saw a young girl walk inside the shop and choose for baby stuffs.
Although it was weird, but I do enjoy buying things for her and cant wait to see her. It's so happy to buy things for her.
Well but the workers seriously make me feel like taking a big board with words written on it
'not like I'm buying for my child, i'm buying for my cousin okay?? '
Also wanted to show that I'm not buying for myself, I purposely called my mum and asked which size should I buy for her. There are few options available: 0-3months, 4-6months, 9-12months and up to 24 months.
Surprisingly, my mum asked me not to buy yet. She said doctor has suspected abnormalities in my lil cousin's heart and brain..and so my aunt will check it in Singapore the next day.
I didnt really take it seriously and continue my shopping. Because I thought it is normal to find abnormalities in fetus.. I was one of those who had been suspected to have no heart beating when I was about 3 months big in my mum's uterus. My dad insisted to stay me alive and see, I'm healthy and strong now.
Yesterday I received a call from my mum in the evening. She said the doctors in Singapore confirmed the abnormalities in the lil girl. Therefore, she has to be aborted on Wednesday.
My heart sank.
It is much different to see a fetus that are going to be aborted compared to a chronic patient who you never know the time he/she will leave. You know the little girl can only live for only 1 more day. Even if she is still a fetus, but she is alive! Her heart is beating! She can feel!! My heart just sank for waiting her dead.
She is my cousin. My close relative.
To me, abortion is cruel. It is killing a life legally. And it is killing you own child. But who am I to judge? I cant ask them to stop. Not like they want to do this, I believe the pain in their hearts is much much more than what I'm feeling now. back to reality, who is going to take care of the child? It is a whole life commitment. Who is going to pay for the coming huge medical fee?
I pray. I really hope that God will have mercy on her, heal her and give her a chance to live. I pray that God will do miracle in her. And I even promised to take the responsibility to teach her bible if she is born. But still, I will accept whatever God's will. For I know that He has His own mighty plan and the plan is always good. Just that our eyes couldn't see now. Even if she cant be born at last, it does not mean that God's mercy is not with her. I know His sight in seeing things is far more further than me. I have faith in Him. For He is fiable, trustworthy!
The baby hasn't got a name yet. If I am to give her a name, I'll call her Elliana- The Lord has responded.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Growing changing and transforming
I seriously found myself change a lot.
From a speaker to a listener.
Well but still I took the responsibility to speak in front of ppl..
It is good. But some how I wish I could be more like a listener.
I used to love to talk so much. Laugh out loud and never been caring for my image in front of my friends, neither I did in the public like mamak stall? hmm
Not that I care now. It's just..some how..I just prefer keeping quiet and..to listen.
Is this good? Well perhaps people really get changes in the age of 20/21.
Perhaps you'll be a quiet lady when you were a chatter box last time?
Or a silent girl will transform to a talkative person when she get older?
Is this a process called maturation? haha then i guess I'll be more mature after gone through this messy-feeling period.hmmmm
But..somehow..I wish I could have a pair of ears for me. So many things to keep inside..yet hard to and cant tell..
I'm not happy actually.. But thanks God that He gives me peace.Sometimes you'll find yourself pity when you know you're not happy at all. But some how all these uneasy thought just become nothing when you find that there is actually great peace in your heart which no one else can ever give except God. And you're so lucky to have that opportunity to have the real peace inside you. Somehow all these depressing facts become NOTHING when you see God, the one who create you actually have His eyes on you each and every seconds.
Happy or unhappy suddenly become nothing, when you see happiness doesn't really a big thing that makes you feel meaningful to live but peace. Happiness will fade. Once that cheering thing gone, it disappear before you even realized. But there is something which we seldom realized its significance, until someday you lose something important, or until you are thrown into a desert, then you'll found it. It is like a hot spring in the winter or a fountain in the desert. Which lasts. And no matter what happen, it still like a scar on your epithelial tissue, once there, forever there. No matter what surgery you tried, no matter what cream you applied, no matter how much you desire to remove it, it will still be there. You might thought it disappear as you cant see it. But underneath you skin, it's still there. :) and that's the real peace which God has given to you that moment you realized He is the only God and you surrender in Him. The peace will never faded.
Until one day you lose things you grabbed hardly or things you thought you can never live without, and you thought you'll lose the meaning of living but the fact is you dont, and you start to wonder how come you still live as brightly as other ppl or even brighter than them? then you'll found and see the peace in you which make you fearless of everything except God. The word 'peace' come into you when you know that the Messiah is called Emmanuel.
Emmanuel means 'God with us' by the way, and Messiah means the savior.
Thanks God for He has chosen me to be His child, His people and the citizen of heaven. =)
From a speaker to a listener.
Well but still I took the responsibility to speak in front of ppl..
It is good. But some how I wish I could be more like a listener.
I used to love to talk so much. Laugh out loud and never been caring for my image in front of my friends, neither I did in the public like mamak stall? hmm
Not that I care now. It's just..some how..I just prefer keeping quiet and..to listen.
Is this good? Well perhaps people really get changes in the age of 20/21.
Perhaps you'll be a quiet lady when you were a chatter box last time?
Or a silent girl will transform to a talkative person when she get older?
Is this a process called maturation? haha then i guess I'll be more mature after gone through this messy-feeling period.hmmmm
But..somehow..I wish I could have a pair of ears for me. So many things to keep inside..yet hard to and cant tell..
I'm not happy actually.. But thanks God that He gives me peace.Sometimes you'll find yourself pity when you know you're not happy at all. But some how all these uneasy thought just become nothing when you find that there is actually great peace in your heart which no one else can ever give except God. And you're so lucky to have that opportunity to have the real peace inside you. Somehow all these depressing facts become NOTHING when you see God, the one who create you actually have His eyes on you each and every seconds.
Happy or unhappy suddenly become nothing, when you see happiness doesn't really a big thing that makes you feel meaningful to live but peace. Happiness will fade. Once that cheering thing gone, it disappear before you even realized. But there is something which we seldom realized its significance, until someday you lose something important, or until you are thrown into a desert, then you'll found it. It is like a hot spring in the winter or a fountain in the desert. Which lasts. And no matter what happen, it still like a scar on your epithelial tissue, once there, forever there. No matter what surgery you tried, no matter what cream you applied, no matter how much you desire to remove it, it will still be there. You might thought it disappear as you cant see it. But underneath you skin, it's still there. :) and that's the real peace which God has given to you that moment you realized He is the only God and you surrender in Him. The peace will never faded.
Until one day you lose things you grabbed hardly or things you thought you can never live without, and you thought you'll lose the meaning of living but the fact is you dont, and you start to wonder how come you still live as brightly as other ppl or even brighter than them? then you'll found and see the peace in you which make you fearless of everything except God. The word 'peace' come into you when you know that the Messiah is called Emmanuel.
Emmanuel means 'God with us' by the way, and Messiah means the savior.
Thanks God for He has chosen me to be His child, His people and the citizen of heaven. =)
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Yahweh is God!
It's holiday it's holiday it's holiday!!!
so many things to write but i'm so lazy to sort out all those pieces of happenings in my mind..
I learnt a lot about christianity throughout these few months. God taught me a lot through 2 ways to live classes, through things that happened around me, through decisions that I had to made, through church, through bible and through the Holy Spirit.
I found myself changed a lot. No fear of evangelizing, no ashamed of the gospel, and no proud of myself.
I thank God for shaping me. He never lost His promises, He never fail His covenant. He is just, He is fair, He is righteous. He is God. God is YAHWEH. YAHWEH is God. He is.
I'm so glad, so happy, so excited, so shock that God, this true God that I am worshiping is such a great perfect God. He is so glorious, He is the creator of the earth, not only the earth but the universe, all the galaxies, stars, sun...He is the creator of all things! All things should bow down and kneel before Him but people now instead reject their creator, they mock, deny, disdain of the gospel and yet, the creator still love us, mind us, keep us, waiting for His people to repent. He is such a glorious God, He is glorious, but how can this glorious God, who is worshiping by all the angels all day and all night, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant,being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.
I cant imagine how great is His love, how great, how amazing, how awesome is God.
原来神是这样的神！ :)
I was again amazed by God few days ago. I bought a wardrobe and a book shelf from a shopping mall few days ago and they promised to offer me free delivery. But when the lorry arrived, the management office of Vista B asked me to give them a deposit of RM200 so that to allow the lorry to came in. I refused to do so and therefore they asked me to ask the workers to carry the things all way long up to my unit. And so I did. When I talked to the workers only I realized that those boxes are not just like the empty boxes which we carried but are containing weighty woods that make them so so so heavy. So one of the worker asked me to give him RM10, he said since I refused to pay the rm200 for the management, then I can pay him for only 10 bucks and then he will help me to carry, to make things easy.I was shocked for the first time people ask me to involve in corruption. I didn't know what to do except to say no. ' but I cant do this because I'm a christian' I said without knowing how powerful it actually is.
The worker stunted and helped me unconditionally.
In bible, Matthew 10:42 it says
42 And cwhoever gives one of dthese little ones even a cup of cold water because he is a disciple, truly, I say to you, he will by no means lose his reward.”
It is the first time I experienced people receives me because I am a christian. I cant give him money neither can I give him any 'goods' but I prayed for 3 of them after went back home. I strongly believe that they will by no means lose their reward.
Can you see how powerful God's name is? A single simple sentence ' I am a christian ' could stop corruption from being happened. A single sentence of saying no and declare my identity as a christian could stop sinning. How great is God. He is sovereign! Even the heart of the worker He reign.
Praise the LORD!
so many things to write but i'm so lazy to sort out all those pieces of happenings in my mind..
I learnt a lot about christianity throughout these few months. God taught me a lot through 2 ways to live classes, through things that happened around me, through decisions that I had to made, through church, through bible and through the Holy Spirit.
I found myself changed a lot. No fear of evangelizing, no ashamed of the gospel, and no proud of myself.
I thank God for shaping me. He never lost His promises, He never fail His covenant. He is just, He is fair, He is righteous. He is God. God is YAHWEH. YAHWEH is God. He is.
I'm so glad, so happy, so excited, so shock that God, this true God that I am worshiping is such a great perfect God. He is so glorious, He is the creator of the earth, not only the earth but the universe, all the galaxies, stars, sun...He is the creator of all things! All things should bow down and kneel before Him but people now instead reject their creator, they mock, deny, disdain of the gospel and yet, the creator still love us, mind us, keep us, waiting for His people to repent. He is such a glorious God, He is glorious, but how can this glorious God, who is worshiping by all the angels all day and all night, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant,being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.
I cant imagine how great is His love, how great, how amazing, how awesome is God.
原来神是这样的神！ :)
I was again amazed by God few days ago. I bought a wardrobe and a book shelf from a shopping mall few days ago and they promised to offer me free delivery. But when the lorry arrived, the management office of Vista B asked me to give them a deposit of RM200 so that to allow the lorry to came in. I refused to do so and therefore they asked me to ask the workers to carry the things all way long up to my unit. And so I did. When I talked to the workers only I realized that those boxes are not just like the empty boxes which we carried but are containing weighty woods that make them so so so heavy. So one of the worker asked me to give him RM10, he said since I refused to pay the rm200 for the management, then I can pay him for only 10 bucks and then he will help me to carry, to make things easy.I was shocked for the first time people ask me to involve in corruption. I didn't know what to do except to say no. ' but I cant do this because I'm a christian' I said without knowing how powerful it actually is.
The worker stunted and helped me unconditionally.
In bible, Matthew 10:42 it says
42 And cwhoever gives one of dthese little ones even a cup of cold water because he is a disciple, truly, I say to you, he will by no means lose his reward.”
It is the first time I experienced people receives me because I am a christian. I cant give him money neither can I give him any 'goods' but I prayed for 3 of them after went back home. I strongly believe that they will by no means lose their reward.
Can you see how powerful God's name is? A single simple sentence ' I am a christian ' could stop corruption from being happened. A single sentence of saying no and declare my identity as a christian could stop sinning. How great is God. He is sovereign! Even the heart of the worker He reign.
Praise the LORD!
Monday, October 31, 2011
It's the end of the semester
Time flies. I still rememeber the time when I was waiting for the opening of our first semester. It was a long time, for about 4 months plus. I'd got nothing to do except praying, sleeping, eating and watching drama series. I'd got no where to go except going to church and stay at home. That time, I felt dying and everyday was the same.I'd been longing for entering university and to start my new busy life.
And now, sitting in the library, reflecting all those times, I found what I've already realised many years ago--- time flies! and it really does!
It's reaching the end of the semester. This week is our 1st week of study break. In 2 weeks time, we will be facing our EOS. Many things have happened that really coloured up my life, yet many things have changed and I know there are still something and something that going to change.
Hah! my last post was about the fall right? and yeap! we made it! :D
Know what? our team got champion in the cheerleading competition!! wohooo!!! Go Phoenix!!!
Fight Phoenix Fight Fight Fight!
I was really suprised that we got a champion. And, And!!! Phoenix got the overall champion in IMU CUP 2011!! YEPEEEE!!! WEHEEEE! WAHAHAHAHAH :DDD
so happy you know!
That's my first medal in sport and it is GOLD! YEAP! GOLD!!!!
so happy!hahahaha
I'm happy not fully because of the gold thingy, but the frienship we got through all these days. Many of us got injured but we stood up again. And know what? all of us were having tests, summative and all that. but we never skipped the practises instead we had our study group together during the practises. I think we were the least tough team. Apperently you see we use more time for studying than doing stunts..:D
Hmm.. typing until here, I feel it's time to upload some photos for better explanation in expressing how happy I am :)
deng deng deng deng! Present to you, IMU PHOENIX CHEERLEADERS 2011 :D
Before the competition.
Our last post.
And now, sitting in the library, reflecting all those times, I found what I've already realised many years ago--- time flies! and it really does!
It's reaching the end of the semester. This week is our 1st week of study break. In 2 weeks time, we will be facing our EOS. Many things have happened that really coloured up my life, yet many things have changed and I know there are still something and something that going to change.
Hah! my last post was about the fall right? and yeap! we made it! :D
Know what? our team got champion in the cheerleading competition!! wohooo!!! Go Phoenix!!!
Fight Phoenix Fight Fight Fight!
I was really suprised that we got a champion. And, And!!! Phoenix got the overall champion in IMU CUP 2011!! YEPEEEE!!! WEHEEEE! WAHAHAHAHAH :DDD
so happy you know!
That's my first medal in sport and it is GOLD! YEAP! GOLD!!!!
so happy!hahahaha
I'm happy not fully because of the gold thingy, but the frienship we got through all these days. Many of us got injured but we stood up again. And know what? all of us were having tests, summative and all that. but we never skipped the practises instead we had our study group together during the practises. I think we were the least tough team. Apperently you see we use more time for studying than doing stunts..:D
Hmm.. typing until here, I feel it's time to upload some photos for better explanation in expressing how happy I am :)
The champion!! Can see me??haha
The gathering in Chilis, Mid Valley
Need more??
Here it goes again! =D
During practise
Oops.. A lil bit blur
Hah..Alright..That's enough I think. wu4 yi3 xi1 wei2 gui4 =P
I'm longing for next year's choir concert and cg. I believe lives will be changed by God through cg. :)
Alright, it's to study.. Human biology T.T
BEFORE THIS,
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
The choristes
The cell group
And last but not least,
Jerry's home :D
I thank God so much for what He has done in me.
He teaches me, leads me and loves me.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Finally I got a time to breath
Reading on the title, I guess you've already known how busy I was during these few weeks.
Report and cheer practice and choir and testS and many many more activities.
Everyday I'm like a clock, following the same tempo and move again and again.
Throughout the whole busy 'process' I gone through depression, stress, tears, and emo. I shared about how busy I was during yesterday's cg. One of my friend ask me why my stressness are not shown on face? I smiled and replied 'maybe tomorrow?' As I was thinking about her question, I ask myself too. Yea, I've been so busy and tensed but do I really get depressed? No! And now I was again reminded of those little things God has done in me that lights up my days. Everyday I'm stressing but everyday I got various joy and surprises as well which really make up my day. And God actually grant me power in doing all those things like miracle-ly finish one report per day. He know that I love singing, and so He gave us a chance to practice songs and performed in the middle of the 'process'. He know I need a rest, and so He gave me a super long resting time during my church retreat. I still remember that morning, I woke up early and climb all the way up to the top of the hotel. I called my mum, appologize to her as we just had a fight the day before. I prayed, talked to God and worship Him. It was a great quiet time with my LORD.=)
I've been through some injuries these weeks. The first one was my head. I got a concussion on the left side of my head and that part was significantly swollen. It was almost recoverd after 2 weeks time and at that time, I fell again. This time is a great fall. It hit my pelvis ( i think so). I can walk, but not fast. I cant jump and really feel pain when I try to bend forward. I really do not know what can I do and what should I do. I do hope that I could be a great flier but now..
I tried to attend the practices and do warm up as usual. But the more I do the more I pain. One day, my captain came to me and told that they might replaced me with the new girl. I dont blame them at all because I know I cant be a flier anymore. And somehow I felt relieved. I am in a dilemma. I dont know whether should i quit. I know my limit..and I know it is going to the end.
I went to the chiropractic centre today for examination. The doctor said my bond is a lil bit senget. And so I need to do some theraphy. It was quite a funny experience. I've never realised that seeking for a chiropractic means you have to be touched by the doctor. I was shocked when the doctor started to examine my back bone! haha..But he is really a good doctor. He pointed out the injured point accurately. He even found other 2 points of my body where I do feel not well when get tired. I never told him also. I thought it was just some muscle pain. My housemates where there and they were like watching show..haha..see how the doctor pull my limbs and all that. I was scared by the ' cracking' sound my body made when he stretched my head and shoulder :(
It was a nice theraphy by the way. But it cost 120++ T.T
and I need to go back few more times and each and everytime will cost me another RM80++ :(
ah by the way, the reason why i'm so free today is that i just finish my human biology test!!wohooo!
But it was a super tough test..
That's all for today. bye!
When we are frustrating and depressed, just think of our God. Knowing that He still reign and there are actually many little blessings surround us everyday, just that we dont realise :)
Report and cheer practice and choir and testS and many many more activities.
Everyday I'm like a clock, following the same tempo and move again and again.
Throughout the whole busy 'process' I gone through depression, stress, tears, and emo. I shared about how busy I was during yesterday's cg. One of my friend ask me why my stressness are not shown on face? I smiled and replied 'maybe tomorrow?' As I was thinking about her question, I ask myself too. Yea, I've been so busy and tensed but do I really get depressed? No! And now I was again reminded of those little things God has done in me that lights up my days. Everyday I'm stressing but everyday I got various joy and surprises as well which really make up my day. And God actually grant me power in doing all those things like miracle-ly finish one report per day. He know that I love singing, and so He gave us a chance to practice songs and performed in the middle of the 'process'. He know I need a rest, and so He gave me a super long resting time during my church retreat. I still remember that morning, I woke up early and climb all the way up to the top of the hotel. I called my mum, appologize to her as we just had a fight the day before. I prayed, talked to God and worship Him. It was a great quiet time with my LORD.=)
I've been through some injuries these weeks. The first one was my head. I got a concussion on the left side of my head and that part was significantly swollen. It was almost recoverd after 2 weeks time and at that time, I fell again. This time is a great fall. It hit my pelvis ( i think so). I can walk, but not fast. I cant jump and really feel pain when I try to bend forward. I really do not know what can I do and what should I do. I do hope that I could be a great flier but now..
I tried to attend the practices and do warm up as usual. But the more I do the more I pain. One day, my captain came to me and told that they might replaced me with the new girl. I dont blame them at all because I know I cant be a flier anymore. And somehow I felt relieved. I am in a dilemma. I dont know whether should i quit. I know my limit..and I know it is going to the end.
I went to the chiropractic centre today for examination. The doctor said my bond is a lil bit senget. And so I need to do some theraphy. It was quite a funny experience. I've never realised that seeking for a chiropractic means you have to be touched by the doctor. I was shocked when the doctor started to examine my back bone! haha..But he is really a good doctor. He pointed out the injured point accurately. He even found other 2 points of my body where I do feel not well when get tired. I never told him also. I thought it was just some muscle pain. My housemates where there and they were like watching show..haha..see how the doctor pull my limbs and all that. I was scared by the ' cracking' sound my body made when he stretched my head and shoulder :(
It was a nice theraphy by the way. But it cost 120++ T.T
and I need to go back few more times and each and everytime will cost me another RM80++ :(
ah by the way, the reason why i'm so free today is that i just finish my human biology test!!wohooo!
But it was a super tough test..
That's all for today. bye!
When we are frustrating and depressed, just think of our God. Knowing that He still reign and there are actually many little blessings surround us everyday, just that we dont realise :)
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
The power of fellowship
Sometimes it is just great that you have a fellowship in your life.
It is just lovely that you have a group of friends in Christ who always care for you and take the initiative to look for you.
It is just touched that even sometimes you've forgotten some of them or even feel like not to entertain them, but still they are there for you.
I thank God that He love me so much.
He always surprise me by different ways and bring me happiness in ways that I never thought of, or even never had I ask for.
I was emo these few days. My heart was filled by emptiness. and He know that.
I thought I am ok and fine.
Today, during my devotion, the book asked me what are the things that disrupt me from worshiping God with all heart. And i answered. The next question was, what are you going to do in order to solve them? And I wrote, ' pray to God. Ask God to help me because I know that I cant solve it by myself.' and so I prayed.
My life back to normal right after I stepped out from bedroom. I wasn't in good mood throughout the whole evening. I was ok with that and left myself in bad mood. I did not talk politely to my neighbour's children and treated them like a strict teacher to her students. And I dont find it wrong or unwise.
Until one of my friend phoned me. ' Hey Jia Ying, where are you? At home huh?'
'yeea..'i replied.
' Okay! now we are going to your place!hahaha'
' what?? dont! '
' hahaha, no choice we are heading now! bye!'
'bye..'
I wanted to hide myself in my lil' home and dont feel like entertaining anyone.
After putting down my phone, I went upstairs and change cloth. (Well, i used to wear pyjamas at home.)
Suddenly a sentence that I read during devotion popped out in my mind.
' If one couldn't love his brother, how can he say that he loves God?'
Few minutes after, they arrived. We chit chat and talked about my life in IMU. I shared about the cf, my housemates, awesome people i met and also the Ca ro mio ben thing, which people thought I am an awesome vocalist but actually I didnt really sing well during the orientation. We laugh together, talked about nonsense, and had dinner together. Somehow I was brought out from emptiness and see light.
I am glad that I have a best father and a best mother.
They always treat our friends and any guest who happen to come to our house nicely.
They love to do so. I do learnt a lot form them. The way they treat others, the way they help people who are in needs. They never hesitated to do so even in times when we are not rich.
I appreciate their kindness. I respect them. They not only tell us to be a good man but teach us by showing us how.
God is amazing. I am blind. Many times, I could not see the wonderfulness of things arround me nor I realised my own sin. I always thought I am a good girl and my family isn't lovely enough.
Thanks God that He always brighten my eyes and let me see all the wonderful lovely people in my life and also what is wrong with me. So that I can change and do likewise as God's characters.
God is great. He loves me before I know Him.
His love is so much that fills up all my heart and all my soul.
I live in God's love.
I live in love.
God is gracious!
It is just lovely that you have a group of friends in Christ who always care for you and take the initiative to look for you.
It is just touched that even sometimes you've forgotten some of them or even feel like not to entertain them, but still they are there for you.
I thank God that He love me so much.
He always surprise me by different ways and bring me happiness in ways that I never thought of, or even never had I ask for.
I was emo these few days. My heart was filled by emptiness. and He know that.
I thought I am ok and fine.
Today, during my devotion, the book asked me what are the things that disrupt me from worshiping God with all heart. And i answered. The next question was, what are you going to do in order to solve them? And I wrote, ' pray to God. Ask God to help me because I know that I cant solve it by myself.' and so I prayed.
My life back to normal right after I stepped out from bedroom. I wasn't in good mood throughout the whole evening. I was ok with that and left myself in bad mood. I did not talk politely to my neighbour's children and treated them like a strict teacher to her students. And I dont find it wrong or unwise.
Until one of my friend phoned me. ' Hey Jia Ying, where are you? At home huh?'
'yeea..'i replied.
' Okay! now we are going to your place!hahaha'
' what?? dont! '
' hahaha, no choice we are heading now! bye!'
'bye..'
I wanted to hide myself in my lil' home and dont feel like entertaining anyone.
After putting down my phone, I went upstairs and change cloth. (Well, i used to wear pyjamas at home.)
Suddenly a sentence that I read during devotion popped out in my mind.
' If one couldn't love his brother, how can he say that he loves God?'
Few minutes after, they arrived. We chit chat and talked about my life in IMU. I shared about the cf, my housemates, awesome people i met and also the Ca ro mio ben thing, which people thought I am an awesome vocalist but actually I didnt really sing well during the orientation. We laugh together, talked about nonsense, and had dinner together. Somehow I was brought out from emptiness and see light.
I am glad that I have a best father and a best mother.
They always treat our friends and any guest who happen to come to our house nicely.
They love to do so. I do learnt a lot form them. The way they treat others, the way they help people who are in needs. They never hesitated to do so even in times when we are not rich.
I appreciate their kindness. I respect them. They not only tell us to be a good man but teach us by showing us how.
God is amazing. I am blind. Many times, I could not see the wonderfulness of things arround me nor I realised my own sin. I always thought I am a good girl and my family isn't lovely enough.
Thanks God that He always brighten my eyes and let me see all the wonderful lovely people in my life and also what is wrong with me. So that I can change and do likewise as God's characters.
God is great. He loves me before I know Him.
His love is so much that fills up all my heart and all my soul.
I live in God's love.
I live in love.
God is gracious!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
It's a break!
Now we are having our Hari Raya break..
It's a one week break. A great time for me to rest.
But sincerely, I dont really like this kind of way of spending my time.
Feel myself lazy and lifeless.
Yes i need a rest. I hope for holiday..but I'm sick of long holiday.
I've had it too much until I dont feel excited at all during the middle of the long holiday.
I'm tired. Tired of being people of facebook.
It's meaningless. I went hiking this morning and has came back to skudai at the afternoon.
I spent the rest of the day on facebook, 'stalking' people, viewing my own wall right down bottom to the time when I first join facebook. And I found nothing but only emptiness.
What's for I spent my holidays inside facebook?
Somehow I started to not like holiday and facebook.
How my life would be without facebook? How our life would be if facebook never exist?
I believe they would be a better one, which are more interesting and meaningful.
I love the true world. Someone please rescue me from the virtual world!
Thanks Lord that i've friends like shao wen and kah chiin, I've housemates like hannah, amanda, celine and joon leong.That which I suppose them called true friend in the real world.
Thanks God I've Jesus my Lord in my life, who makes me live. Without Jesus, I'm dead.
He is where I found true happiness and peace. He is where i found myself.
Thank you Jesus. Thank you Jesus for your love in me. Your love is so much and powerful that I who was filled with emptiness found a light after thinking of your love. My tiredness relieved after I was again reminded that You love me. My tiredness gone after again I was reminded that You reign and I am Your precious daughter. Thanks Lord. I love You Lord.
It's a one week break. A great time for me to rest.
But sincerely, I dont really like this kind of way of spending my time.
Feel myself lazy and lifeless.
Yes i need a rest. I hope for holiday..but I'm sick of long holiday.
I've had it too much until I dont feel excited at all during the middle of the long holiday.
I'm tired. Tired of being people of facebook.
It's meaningless. I went hiking this morning and has came back to skudai at the afternoon.
I spent the rest of the day on facebook, 'stalking' people, viewing my own wall right down bottom to the time when I first join facebook. And I found nothing but only emptiness.
What's for I spent my holidays inside facebook?
Somehow I started to not like holiday and facebook.
How my life would be without facebook? How our life would be if facebook never exist?
I believe they would be a better one, which are more interesting and meaningful.
I love the true world. Someone please rescue me from the virtual world!
Thanks Lord that i've friends like shao wen and kah chiin, I've housemates like hannah, amanda, celine and joon leong.That which I suppose them called true friend in the real world.
Thanks God I've Jesus my Lord in my life, who makes me live. Without Jesus, I'm dead.
He is where I found true happiness and peace. He is where i found myself.
Thank you Jesus. Thank you Jesus for your love in me. Your love is so much and powerful that I who was filled with emptiness found a light after thinking of your love. My tiredness relieved after I was again reminded that You love me. My tiredness gone after again I was reminded that You reign and I am Your precious daughter. Thanks Lord. I love You Lord.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
The kepo
Why is love always come with pain?
Pain is so kepo..wherever love go, it will go along.
Pain, you're so kepo!
Pain is so kepo..wherever love go, it will go along.
Pain, you're so kepo!
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